Never

Things I will never get to do

I will never get to hold you again.
I will never get to buy you clothes
I will never get to paint your nursery blue.
I will never get to buy the furniture i had picked out for your room.
I will never see you smile
I will never hear you cry.
I will never change your diaper.
I will never get to wake up in the middle of the night to feed you.
I will never get to fed you.
I will never see you crawl.
I will never see you take your first steps.
I will never hear you laugh
I will never see you go to school.
I will never feel you inside of me kicking me.
I will never hear you say mommy or daddy.
I will never get to give you a bath and rub lotion on you.
I will never be able to cuddle with you again.

I am so sad for all the thing we will never be able to do Ben. I miss you every second of my life. I miss you so much. I wish we had had more time together.