A letter to my son.

Dear Ben,

I miss you everyday of my life. Make that every second of my life. You were with me for every second of 19 weeks. I feel empty without you. I feel lost without you. I know you are with me but I want you here physically. I want to hold you again. I want to feel you move. I just don't know how to move on without you. Mommy is trying. Mommy misses you so much. Daddy misses you too. We got a dog to try to help up but that didn't work out well. I know you were with me the other day. I asked your for strength going to see everyone i work with and you gave it to me. I love you so much. I wish you were here with me still. I just miss you so much.

Love you forever
Mommy