Grief

I feel like like I'm in the ocean. The ripped tide that sucked me out to sea is gone. The water is calm...for now. I can feel the bottom of the sea floor. I can stand. I can see the shore, it;s not too far away. I see a wave coming and i ride it out. It's ok. Im walking to the shore. I'm almost there. Another wave comes only this time I don't see it, it knocks me down. I try to get back up but another one comes and keeps me down. The tide is pulling me back and Im too tired to fight. I know from expereince to try to keep my head above the water and tread water until it is calm again. It's all I can do.